9:38pm

waiting for sam to fetch mi home..

these few days, i visit http://www.singaporebrides.com/ and www.singaporemotherhood.com i feel that they are very good forum for those who are going to get married or going to be a mother.. if u're a husband-to-be, u should visit this site too! bcos it really helps your wife alot..=) also like this website.. http://lesdames.proboards79.com/index.cgi talked to them about my problems.. and they answered it maturely..

those who suggest that i abort it, i guess they are the ones who cannot face as being a mother.. they still want to play.. because they haven't played enough.. they feel that they have not accomplish alot of things.. they does not want the baby to tie them down.. im really quite sad that when i made this decision, most of my friends do not encourage me.. i thought they will support me.. and my 2 bitches, they are not there for me.. *sighs.. i realise how different am i to them.. because ive grown-up..=) the reason why i want this kid is this.. i know its going to be super tough.. and i know how tough its gonna be.. i know i canot spend like last time.. canot buy those things that i want.. but really, it doesnt matter.. i love this small little living thing that's in my stomach now.. i know i love him/her more than myself.. and i know i've played enuff.. i know i can work for the reason of him/her.. im prepared.. really prepared.. alot of them can say just abort it.. i don't even dare to think abt it.. its my kid.. i will definitely have endless nightmares if i kill him/her.. i will definitely cry if after a few months i have miscarriage.. im not as heartless as u guys.. if u don't dare to take up the responsibility, den don't have SEX.. simple as it is.. if u cant take the responsibility, den why wait until u pregnant den go abort? its juz an innocent life.. im so eager and excited for the day it arrives..=x den i will keep luffing and luffing.. i noe i will cry for sure.. but the tears are for happiness.. im aware of the pain.. ive a thought since young.. i sae i don't want to give birth becos it hurts.. SUPER DUPER PAIN! and i know i cfm canot tahan.. i would rather go for adoption.. but now, no way!! i would rather endure these pain for awhile.. den i will have this precious little thing with me for my lifetime..=) im frustrated now.. not because of the problems i have to solve.. but rather, why doesnt people think the way as me.. becos if they doesnt think the same as me, that proves that im wrong in my decision.. am i really wrong? bcos wad i feel is.. im really RIGHT abt it.. but this matter is going to take a big turning point of my life.. im still worried.. although my family members and fellow LD members were very supportive.. and ive read abt some posts, their thinkings were quite alike mine.. but somehow, i juz dun understand why there are others who don't approve.. finance is going to be a super big problem.. BUT, have u thought abt it? how much does your parents earn? those average income ones.. 1 month ard 2k for whole family.. how come they enuff? its enuff one.. its only a matter of, how are you going to manage your financial.. i know i can make it.. i definitely can.. with the love of ppl ard me of cos! =)

have told my colleagues that im pregnant and i cant stay in the company for long.. meaning, im quitting.. but that will wait till march.. cos they 2 quite stress liaos.. alot of things to do these few months.. so will help them out till everything tides over..

dear's mum and uncle jerry really treats me good after they approve of the birth of this child..=) they plan for me.. they even ask me to buy a divan for our bed.. cos after a few months, i might have difficulty to get up and down of the bed.. cos our mattress lies on the floor 1.. hahas.. den he keep pushing that i must go have a checkup fast.. i hope my mum and his mum faster meetup.. and we can talk abt ROM and wedding dinner! hehes.. everything is happening so fast.. don't ask me why am i so excited and happy abt it.. when i should feel so sad cos im gonna get married at a young age.. bcos i don't know.. the feeling of getting married is just there.. i know its not a game.. its going to affect my life alot.. but i also know its going to be positive..=) pray for me that my delivery will be a smooth one ok? =)

Jacqueline blogged at 5:37 AM