1:17pm

mummy felt like a much better person these few days.. i cared abt the feelings of ppl ard me.. which is sOo unlike mi.. i dunno issit becos i have u and thus ive grown.. ur daddy too.. he has become much more responsible.. no longer the old sam tat ive known.. he used to be so dependant on ur ahma.. but now.. nt anymore.. im glad.. really glad tat bcos of u.. we both haf grown up.. nt tat we are MATURE already or wad.. but we really "zhang jing" alot..=) my temper has grown ALOT better too.. hehes.. but mummy still cant help but thinks alot.. even hilary (travis's wife aka daddy's colleague's wife) said tat i think too much.. i juz cldnt help but think alot.. n e more i think, e more scary i felt.. e more scary i felt, e more im scared to give birth to u.. yes, im really a coward.. i really very scared of pain.. i really shudders at the thought of it..=( but always, i tell myself tat pain for 1 or 2mths, very fast de.. den u will be here to acc me for my lifetime.. till my deathbed.. and i tell myself.. if other ppl can do it.. means e pain cant really kills mi.. and den e thought disappears.. its juz tat it always come back time n again.. but i hope i will pull through.. i hope u know tat mi n ur daddy loves u more than ourselves..=) we awaits for ur arrival..

Jacqueline blogged at 10:17 PM